Hey eveyone! I don't know yet who will read this blog, but I hope, whoever finds it will discover an interesting read, a useful resource and a trusted TTC buddy.
I have created this blog, after reading many TTC blogs from women around the world and especially watching some great vlogs on youtube. I cannot do a vlog, because we try to keep our stuggle private, as far as family goes, because after a year and a half of trying we're already tired of everyone asking us what is happening, why we don't have a kid yet and stuff like this. It turns out even family can be so insensitive and can talk without thinking first and hurt our feelings quite often. So I will start this first blog with a short summary of our TTC journey.
I've come off the pill in May 2010. We weren't trying expressly for a baby, because we knew there would be some time after going off the pill when we might not succeed. Come September, my period was about 11 days late, so our hope started to built, but when taking a HPT it was negative and my period arrived 2 days later. When returning from vacation we decided it's time to do something about it and we sought professional help. We went to a fertility specialist and he told us that my ovaries have a micro-polycystic aspect, which is a big name for the popular PCOS. After reading up on the diagnosis I realized I had about 80% of the symptoms listed. I was then referred to a endocrynologist, who put me on Metformin.
I had some differences with that doctor and misunderstandings so I switched to one who was more patient and explained to me everything that was going on. After many test and 8 months of metformin, we were supposed to start Clomid (Clomiphene) treatment on the September cycle. However, while on vacation we took a HPT because I had severe pregnancy symptoms and it was a faint positive. I called my Ob-gyn, and he told me to go in for Beta HCG testing when I got back from vacation and then to go see him for a u/s.
At 5w2d beta was 439.3, which is low supposedly, and at the u/s he could only see a gestational sack of about 2.5mm, which is also low. He said it may be that I just ovulated late and that I should repeat both procedures in a week. So at 6w2d beta was 1026, which is not good, as you can tell, it wasn't doubling, and at the u/s the sac was only 4.5mm. I double checked with a 2nd doctor and a 2nd u/s and the verdict was the same. The pregnancy was stopped in evolution. By this time I started spotting for about a week and my symptoms went down dramatically. On the last u/s the doc showed me the bleeding, it was obvious. A couple of days after the u/s I started bleeding more heavily and having really bad cramps, similar to a period but continuous. This was 4 days ago.
I've been trying to call my OB-GYN all weekend, but he's hard to reach. I finally wrote him a SMS and he responded just minutes ago as I was writing the blog entry. He told be to take 2 vials of Ergometrine Maleate per day for 3 days. It's supposed to stop the bleeding. If it doesn't stop I'll need to go in for a D&C, which to me is very scary. I'm allergic to many things, so I'm scared of anesthesia, and I'm horribly scared of hospitals and doctors too, I was never is any surgeries and the only intervention was for polyps and I ended up with a stupid doctor that operated after the anesthetic wore of... so it hurt like hell, and that's when my paranoia of doctors started.
So this is NOW, mixed feelings, scared but trying to stay hopeful. I'll make an update tomorrow after starting on the vials.
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