So, it's a fair assessment that I believe in God, pray to God for myself and others, but don't attend church too often. I am unaware of the protocols and different services that are done in the Orthodox church, which are many, but I trust that the lack of knowledge doesn't influence how much I believe in HIM.
That being said, there was a point in my life where so many things would go wrong, I would wake up in the middle of the night at the exact same time each night, I had 3 epilepsy seizures that no doctor could explain because I was in perfect health, and my mom took me to a friend of hers, a bioenergy therapist, who immediately told me something is off and someone has done charms on me. She sent me to church to a special service for the ill and possessed called "maslu" (Google translated it as "unction" in English). After going there, I never had any of those things happen to me again.
So only naturally, after my 2nd MC that stopped in evolution on the same exact week as my first one (too much of a coincidence, I said to myself), I went to see her again. Apart from telling me that I have a little trouble with my right sinus, my lungs, and my right kidney, she went on to say that she didn't see anything medically wrong with my reproductive system but that she seem something remaining of the past charm that I got rid off that is diminished but still doing harm. Apparently the person that did the charm did it so nothing would finalize for me, not work, not marriage, not kids... not anything. And I had to admit to myself that some weird things have been happening to me and hubby. We love each other dearly, but even before the wedding we had days when we would fight for no reason at all, it seemed like everything was against us marrying. We lost the money for the honeymoon in a bad business that went south, we lost the location that we initially booked for the wedding and so on.... things were adding up in my head....
So she told me to take advantage of lent and go to the MASLU service 3 times. I'm going Friday, next Monday and next Friday, I'm also starting to read today a prayer to a saint that is said to be the protector of couples and children, and I will read it everyday from now on, and make a determined effort for spiritual cleansing!
I can feel things being off... hubby not being able to get a decent job, me not being able to keep a pregnancy, trouble at work, things going wrong just when they pick up..... a change is needed and I feel God has the answer this time around. So here I am, akward and stumbling through the protocols of a rigid religion, because I trust in God and I feel He can bring us our little miracle!!!
