I guess it's a good thing that I didn't get to put up that week 5 hopeful update on this blog, cause I just came to realize how stupid I was to get so hopeful and wishful.... all the praying in the world couldn't prevent this from happening and I am just speechless at this point.
Beta HCG went down from last week, which means only one thing... baby stopped growing and a miscarriage is imminent.... and I know best of all that no one and nothing can stop it from happening.
I am frustrated, and mad, and confused, and I wanna punch someone in the face, but don't know who, cause it's really nobody's fault! I just don't understand this great plan that God has for me.... I just don't get it!
I am so very sorry to be reading this bad news. Many thoughts, hugs and prayers are with you and your husband.
ReplyDeleteNone of us understand God's plan or timing and sometimes it would be nice to say, "Screw you", and move on with our own plan. But we can't. I hate that you're going through this when you should be able to relax and enjoy pregnancy. I feel for you hun, I really do. *hugs* xx
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry to hear this terrible news, nobody deserves to go through this, my thoughts, prayers and well wishes are with you at this time, pls remember that even though it may not seem like it, God does have a plan for you, and its the best plan you could ever wish for, just please hold on and let him reveal it.
ReplyDeleteThank you all for your support! I do believe in God's plan, but I'm afraid my heart can't take much more disappointment! I am heart-broken and working hard to not let it affect my relationship with hubby, although we did have a huge fight during the MC. But we love eachother and we agreed that we have to come first and that we are the ones who matter, not anyone else in the family and by all means... nothing they ever say!
ReplyDeleteI just wish God could hurry up a bit or move me to the top of the list for once...